Corona Diaries Week 1

Hi! 

'Welcome back' I said to myself as I dusted off the old blog. It’s time to write again. To do something creative during these crazy, unprecedented times we find ourselves in.

I am a split down the middle introvert and extrovert on any personality test I’ve taken. Both sides of myself are feeling this new world we are living in.

On the one hand I love the idea of settling into something, of resting. Of slowing down-the mental battle of what should I do today isn’t looming. I feel like this time has the potential to be so good and so healing for so many. And then on the other hand I feel a sense of dread and overwhelm wash over me as I picture long days spent indoors with those that can drive me the craziest.

The quarantine is helping me in the fact that I don’t have other options of what to do. We are asked to stay home. So we are not planning outings and play dates right now. And I feel relieved in a way knowing I’m not missing out on things. There is a lot of pressure that’s been removed and I’m grateful for it. I can settle into being at home in new ways. I usually struggle with this.

 I always tend to feel this pressure that I should be out doing something. I never really know what that something is and therefore it creates a sense of dread and anxiety. Being a stay at home parent I can essentially set up my days any way I like. But that can feel very overwhelming for me because I never know what to do or how to do it. I feel caught between wanting/needing to get out of the house and wanting/needing to get stuff done in the house. Now I have no choice! I just needed to government to make me stay home! Haha!

So what have we done this week you ask?

Well, this week we’ve read more books (yeah for my ideals becoming reality!), sorted through bins that have been untouched for years, watched movies, gone for walks, cursed under my breath a lot (and out loud if i'm being honest), subsequently listened to a sermon on taming my tongue, washed our hands, yelled at my 6 year old for doing a big loud cough all over our dinner, gone tobogganing, spent too much time on my phone glued to the latest updates and memes, felt overwhelmed, worked out once, made poor shopping decisions, panic bought a lot of booze (the new TP), ate a large peanut butter marshmallow square, doodled with Mo, found my old troll and soother earrings from when I was a kid and wondered if I'll ever wear jeans again?

Elliot and Bennett catching some air

This week was not about routine for us. As someone who has never scheduled a day in her life I gave myself some grace and will set some sort of a schedule in place for next week. The online world got a bit hyper with all the things we could and should be doing. It will take some time to pick and choose what’s for us and what isn’t.

I am aware that reality will reach new levels as next week the kids will officially start at their new school. Yikes. Pray for them...so far the reviews aren't promising ;).

All the best (to whoever reads this) as we collectively in isolation navigate our new normal.